Monday, October 19, 2009

As I Get Older.

As I get older I realize how things change.
im still "young" but growing older in my faith and knowledge
I am beginning to realize true pain, true frustration, true hurt & true love.

We all experience a "broken heart" at some point in life.
and we all experience "death" of a loved one.
or losing "friends" who said they would always be there.

but is that a reason to give up
to say "my life sucks??"
NOOO!
its a time to get on your knees and talk to God!
HE will heal you and get you through it :)

F.A.I.T.H

In Christ,
-Tiffany

Monday, August 31, 2009

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

Missing Someone

---Can missing someone eventually tear you down?
or can seeing someone hurt you over and over eventually shut you out from wanting any love?
if words could cut like a knife, would I be able to count high enough for all my scars?


When you need that person, Gods already called them home.
now its your turn to wait until he says "Its time to come home"


You used to call me your angel
Said I was sent straight down from heaven
You'd hold me close in your arms
I loved the way you felt so strong
I never wanted you to leave
I wanted you to stay here holding me

I miss you
I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear every once in a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here somehow
My heart won't let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you, I miss you

You used to call me your dreamer
And now I'm living out my dream
Oh how I wish you could see everything that's happening for me
I'm thinking back on the past
It's true that time is flying by too fast

I miss you
I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear every once in a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here somehow
My heart won't let you go
And I need you to know I miss you, I miss you

I know you're in a better place
But I wish that I could see your face
I know you're where you need to be
Even though it's not here with me


--Meet me in my dreams Mamaw.
I need you, I need your embrace, and your love.
until I reach those pearly gates ill have to wait.
So meet me in my dreams Mamaw Francis I want to talk with you for awhile.

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

What Is God Trying To Show Or Tell Me?

--As you all know from previous blogs my Grandmother was in the hospital for well over a month. I spent everyday with her, by her side, making sure she was okay and comfortable.
that hospital was my home for over a month.
-i woke up and went there
-i went to sleep there
-when i got home from school, i went there
-i ate there
-i watched tv there
i did everything there.

but i did it all because i love my Grandma so dearly that leaving her side made me feel so low and shallow.

The day she got out of the hospital, we thought my Papaw was going in.
luckly he was okay and didnt have to.......for then

Today at 7:45 a.m. i found out from my mom that my papaw is in the hospital
he was emitted at 3:30 this morning because he had what they think was a heart attack.
this hospital doesnt want to let me go..

--So thats why my blog is titled "What Is God Trying To Show Or Tell Me?"
because its obvious hes trying

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and im ready to find out.


--My blogs about my family being in the hospital or my experiences are by no chance for pity or for you to feel sorry for me. It is to show you that WE ALL struggle but if we give it to God we will suffer no more. Miracles happen - my grandma - ex: -Previous Post- "Miracles From A Hospital Room"
i want to bring you strength,hope and faith. God is with you and HE WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU.

God Bless

In Christ,
-Tiffany

Thursday, May 28, 2009

Change, Its Time

I love my God,
my Jesus
my Savior
my EVERYTHING.

---I want to be a witness for God. I want to talk about him to everyone nonstop. When someone asks i want to speak, tell them everything and help them to turn their lives around.

I have been doing that but I want to go at it harder than i ever have. Head first GOING HARD. I mean it.

Starting NOW!

..because he's my life... <3

Monday, April 20, 2009

Catching Things Up

--Its been awhile since I have blogged and I feel bad.
so heres everything.

HAPPY LATE EASTER!!!!
i hope you had a great one and remember that Jesus is Alive! :)

My next spiritual uplifter is coming

I hope your spring breaks were amazing I just started school back after a week and a day of my spring break.
and i was REALLY upset when i had to get up this morning and go to school
yuck! :)

So i hope this finds you all well! I will have another spiritual uplifter soon!

peace.love.jonas<3
-Tiffany

Friday, March 27, 2009

God Answers: Miracles From A Hospital Room

Hospitals make me weak.
Hospitals strike an immediate fear in me.
Hospitals bring sadness to me.
Hospitals smell funny.
Hospitals are one of my fears.

Today is the end of my Grandmas 3rd week in the hospital. I wanted to share some information on my struggles that goes along with my 3rd spiritual uplifter.
and remember everyone has struggles and doubts

--The first day my grandmother was emitted in the hospital made me have nausia in the pit of my stomach that nothing could cure.
It was at about 2:00 on a Wednesday evening that I was told by my mother that she had been rushed to the hospital in an ambulance.
I can remember that text message so clearly because I was in English where we were watching the movie "Stranger Than Fiction" and I turned to my friend Miranda; and the look on her face made me know that the look on mine was a million times worse.
I was pale,ghostly white, and I felt like I could have vomited because I had worried myself sick all in a matter of about a minute.
My grandmother who had always made sure that we were fed, never let us put ourselves down, and would have given everything she had to save one of us.
my grandma was in the hospital
2:55 the bell rang to get out of school; I was out of English, through the school parking lot and in my car by 3.
As I sat in that sea green waiting room chair all I could do was bow my head and pray and hope.
The voice of my Aunt telling my parents the news was a blur.
i was officially numb.
somehow I had managed not to cry yet; the worry was too great I guess.
when I heard our named called so that we could go back and see her I rose.
I pushed through the tan doors which felt like they weighed about 2 tons on my palm and entered the 2nd room on the right.
the image of my grandmother in that hospital bed will forever be burned into my memory.
the pain on her face made me want to fall to my knees and ask "Why?".
everyone made no impact that they were there to her.
I turned from the door and walked away as fast as could; and thats when the tears made their entrance that never left.
she was told they were rushing her into immediate surgery because she had an ulcer in her stomach that needed to be repaired asap.
for a reason that I have yet to know they decided to wait on her surgery and put her in a room
room 228
she was in an unexplainable pain for about 2 days.
as the 3rd day rolled around we were all nervous wrecks and her little hospital room couldnt hold all 7 of us but we made sure it did because none of us were leaving and none of us wanted anyone too.
the 2nd memory that I will have forever is when her doctor came into the room, sat down on my grandmas bed and asked to talk to us.
I could read it off his face
that nausia was back, my tears were streaming down my face at an uncontrollable pace and I couldnt make eye contact with anyone.
she was told that they were taking her into immediate surgery, they had to get this repaired before it got so bad that it could take her life.
they couldnt wait any longer.
I couldnt feel my hands, my feet. I couldnt think, my lips were paralyzed and my body couldnt feel the slightest touch of comfort
the numbness had paralyzed every working organ, body part, and feeling in me.
I had nothing; except God and my family.
and when we all held hands,bowed our heads and talked to God I felt a peace inside me that I could never explain to you in words.
for he was with me
the night she was emitted I was on my knees praying for her harder than I have ever prayed for anything in my life.
tomorrow marks her 4th week and that same strong praying for her hasnt yeilded itself.
and it wont.
her surgery was a major surgery in which some people die on the table.
my grandma made it through
I can not give thanks to God enough for all his miracles
and everyday I see him healing her; just like I prayed he would
he got my attention and now I see all his blessings to me.

-I asked "Why?" alot
but I never lost my faith that he was going to shield her and make her okay.
we all ask why at some point.
just give it to God.
he will heal you
he will assure you
he will make you better
he will hold you in his arms
he will NEVER leave you

I hope my story showed you that we aren't all perfect and I never claimed to be.
we all struggle.
and you know when someone says "I think i've cried so much that I couldnt cry for another year"
thats what I feel like now.
take it to God.

I love you Mamaw

God Bless

In Christ,
-Tiffany

Spiritual Uplifter 3: ATTENTION!

Have you ever been on a plane?
What about a plane that has went through turbulance?

--If you have then you may have heard your Pilot come over the intercom and ask "Hello Passengers, Can I have your attention please?"

Have certain things arose in your life lately where maybe you have asked God "Lord why me? Why is this happening to me at this time?"
but have you ever really taken the time to listen to his reply or see his work right in front of you?
maybe those problems arose so God could get your Attention.
Believe me I think we have all been at that stage where confusion and doubt enters our minds.
for instance if you have a family member in the hospital, if your having friends or family problems.
maybe you have just asked God "Why me?"
God wants each and ever one of us to to bring all our worries,struggles,conflicts,sicknesses, EVERYTHING to him in prayer.
Talk to God, let him know what your going through because he is an awesome and caring God and he can get you through any situation.
So if God is asking "Can I have your Attention"
...listen...
for he is the great one, your father, your redemer, your strength, your passion, your best friend, your rock, YOUR EVERYTHING.
without him who would you be?

So my challenge to you is to take the time to listen to God.
because maybe he's asking for your Attention.

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God Bless.

In Christ,
-Tiffany

Friday, March 13, 2009

Be With Your Family and Show Them Your Unconditional Love

My Hospital Days and Times

Day: 3 Hours: 21

As some of you may know from my blog my grandmother is in the hospital.
Today was her 3rd day in the hospital in which she was told at about 2:30 that she needed immediate surgery.
My grandmother had a Prefferated Ulcer at the top of her stomach.
If you dont know what an ulcer is, it is a hole in your stomach.
as she was being told what was going to happen, when she would be operated on, and what the doctors saw on her catscan, I started to cry even more than I had before.
but as we all held hands and prayed I felt an assurance that things were going to be alright for my Grandmother and family.
I am so blessed and thankful how great and amazing God is.
he was with my mamaw all the way through her surgery and brought her out.
i am so thankful and happy that she is okay
She will be a sick lady for awhile but i am so blessed that my mamaw is okay and is done hurting and I know that the Lord will lay his healing hand on her.

Thank you Lord, you are amazing and healing. You never left our sides as we grieved and mostly you never left my Grandmothers' side. I can never truly explain to you how blessed I am by you. You amaze me more and more every single day! Thank you so much Lord. You are always by our sides.
Your Truly Amazing.
I love you!

God Bless.

In Christ,
-Tiffany

Spiritual Uplifter 2: Praying

"Have faith in God," Jesus answered. "Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you will receive it, and it will be yours. "
- Mark 11: 22-24

And pray that we may be delivered from the wicked and evil men, for not everyone has faith. But the Lord is faithful, and he will strengthen and protect you from the evil one.
- 2 Thessalonians 3: 2-3

--Prayer is our way of talking to the Lord. He loves to hear from us just like our family or friends. But do you know what each of your fingers mean when you pray?

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Each finger represents things you should pray for in your prayer to the Lord your God.

The Thumb: The people closest to you
ex: your family,friends,animals..etc.

Index Finger: People in who Own or are in charge of something
ex: your principal, your teachers, your boss...etc.

Middle Finger: Your Leaders
ex: the president, members of congress, the mayor...etc.

The Ring Finger (Your Weakest Finger): The sick or the weak; People who may need God or are struggling

Pinky Finger: Yourself

--Did you know that? When I first learned that I realized I had some things to work on in my prayer myself.
For instance praying for yourself last.
With all the worrys and the fears in our everyday life ill admit that I didnt always pray for myself last.
Now I realize that no matter what may happen or what natural disaster or economy situation arises; we're going to be alright.
For the Lord himself said:
I will NEVER leave or forsake you.
-Hebrews 13: 14

So I challenge you from now on to work on your prayer.
Are you praying the way we are supposed to?
and even if you are im sure theres always something small we could fix with it. :)

God Bless

In Christ,
-Tiffany

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Cherish.

Hey everyone!
how are you?
I have 2 spiritual uplifters coming.
and today i have spent all day with my grandmother in the hospital
and it has been a very stressful day.
i love her more than anything and im very worried but i know my amazing God is with me and my family through this.
so one of my uplifter topics will be to cherish your loved ones.
the next one ill keep a surprise. :)

buttt...
im going to go take a shower and crash
hospital again tomorrow but i promise my spiritual uplifters will be up asap
pray for my grandmother please. :)
God Bless!

peace.love.jonas <3
&& In Christ
-Tiffany

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Spiritual Uplifter 1: True Joy

There's nothing more contradictory than an unenthusiastic Christian. The Bible tells us that God loves us so much, in fact, that God gave his only son so that all who believe in him will have everlasting life. Nothing not even death can separate us from God's love! If we really believe that, we can't help but overflow with joy!

Ronald Newhouse

--Isnt it amazing to be filled with such Joy that you feel like you have to share it.?
as if to "spill" your happiness to friends or loved ones.

When do you feel this way? What events have happened to you when you were overflowed with joy?

A certain Christian Song I recently heard changed me in certain ways.
this song brought me to my knees; not because I didnt have a strong relationship with my Savior but simply because of the message in the song itself.
I wanted to share this song with you -

I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait

I will move ahead, bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience

While I'm waiting
I will serve You
While I'm waiting
I will worship
While I'm waiting
I will not faint
I'll be running the race
Even while I wait

Im waiting
Im waiting on you Lord
and I am peaceful
Im waiting on you Lord
though its not easy,no.
but faithfully I will wait
yes I will wait.


I will move ahead bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience

While im waiting
I will serve you
While im waiting
I will worship
While im waiting
I will not faint
ill be runnin the race
even while I wait

I will move ahead bold and confident
ill be taking every step in obedience, yeah

While im waiting
I will serve you
While im waiting
I will worship
While im waiting
I will not faint


And I will serve you while im waiting
I will worship while im waiting
I will serve you while im waiting
I will worship while im waiting (x2)
While im waiting on you Lord.

--That song fills me with an indescribable amount of joy. I hope that your faith in Jesus will fill you with such Joy that you cant help but to share the Gospel with others. Jesus lives and one day we will all get to see him face to face! :)
That will truly be the greatest day of my life.!

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In Christ,
-Tiffany

Saturday, February 21, 2009

Life.

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Life.
What do we make of it?
Do we constantly think of where our cell phone is, or what people thought of what you looked like today, how about your plans for this weekend?
do you know what your doing yet?

Life is hard. People choose to walk in and out of your life constantly, and life never slows when things just dont go right.
it is a constant battle.
no one promised it would be easy.
where do you look to when you have a bad day?
when it feels like everyone is against you or that person you are just waiting and anticipating to talk to never comes.?
....it hurts.
but take it to your Savior Jesus Christ; he's all you need in your life to get you through.



My blogs are changing and what I mean by "changing" is they aren't going to be about what I did that day or who told me what.
I will still post about those things dont get me wrong I love blogging!
but instead of doing that everyday im going to try to do an uplifting christian blog.
now try to bear with me in this because I dont have alot of time everyday to get on my blogger account but I am going to try!
I will blog about things I do every day but atleast once a week I will do my daily christian blog.
--or ill call it my Spiritual Uplifter.
and knowing me I will probably do it numerous times a week. (:

peace.love.jonas<3
&&
In Christ
-Tiffany

Monday, January 19, 2009

Falters.

Everyone isnt perfect.
people make mistakes everyday.
every moment of every day someone fails.
so why is everyone standing back and judging them.?
recently alot of things have went on in my family and in my everyday life and when i see someone publicly bash someone for their beliefs,happiness,views,etc. it makes me very upset.
So this is why this blog is going up.

1.Beliefs-
Everyone is different. What is right to them may not be right to you. But that is how everyone grows in life and in Christ. We have to have doubts of different beliefs but always know that we are steadfast in our faith of our Savior.
Your not always going to find someone who has the same outlook on things as you do.
So instead of automatically catgorizing them into something that you dont like maybe you should talk to them and see where they come from.
and them maybe you yourself would be a changed person and would have a different persona on everyone.
and also you wouldnt be so quick to judge.

2.Happiness-
–noun
1.
the quality or state of being happy.
2.
good fortune; pleasure; contentment; joy.


Happiness.
People have happiness in different ways. They may be different in the things they do for happiness,their kind of relationships for happiness,ways to be happy.
But why should it matter to you as long as your happy?

Someone may be happy with a different lifestyle that not everyone agrees with.
But personally if you dont agree thats your plate to call.
But what i do not agree with is you voicing your disagree,poking names at the person,humiliating the person, tearing that person down, turning everyone against them because they may see things different than you.
--Well i have news
EVERYONE IS DIFFERENT!
You should not judge someone by what they do. You should know their personality and what makes them great. Not just whats on the outside.

If your such a fully fledged follower of God you would not judge someone on how they find their happiness.
This situation is personally close to my heart. I have learned to not judge people so fast in the past year with different events that have reflected on my life.
So if someone is happy no matter what their doing that YOU dont agree.
let them be.
because thats their place of happiness and you have yours.
and i know for a FACT that you wouldnt like someone to post about you or your happiness and beliefs.
SO LET THEM HAVE THEIR HAPPINESS.!
WE ARE ALL DIFFERENT, THEIR ARE NO TWO ALIKE!

3. Views-
I dont have alot to say on views because it kind of goes along with beliefs.
but i do need to say this.

You may share views with other people but not with everyone.
realize that and let it go.
because there is NOTHING you can do to change it.


--This blog was something i felt i needed to type.
Peoples ways of tearing down someone.
CORRECTION-Someone who i love with all of my heart and would die for.
has been tearing me up.
you have no right to publicly tear a person down.
and you also have no right to turn people against that person for what they want and believe.
LEAVE THEM ALONE.
they will find their peace and they have to have obstacles to find their right path.
and maybe you should take a step back and look at what you have been doing and realize thats not what a true follower should be.

I did not post this blog to judge.
i just think that, that one person i know who has hurt someone so close to me that i love should know how i feel.
live your own life.
and stop trying to live someone elses.
they know your trying to make them miserable..
and its worked.
So you've won.
so let it be!